Better Tomorrows

Yesterday I complained about how I couldn't get anything done. No motivation, no time, blah blah blah... Today I woke up at a decent hour which allowed me to have over an hour all to myself while Ick continued to sleep in bed. It helped that I went to bed at a decent hour as well! This did wonders for my personal peace. I know I won't always get that since we share a room for now, but it's wonderful when I do get it. I was able to sit in the quiet and read my daily Bible verses (reading the Bible in 6 months, First and New Testaments at the same time but in order), and daily devotionals.

Ick finally woke up after 11am (holy crap, 13 hours?!) and he 'helped' me wash the dishes. It's a lot easier when I let him 'help' because then he won't stand next to my leg screaming, "Hold you! Hold you! Hold you!" when all he really wants is for me to pay 100% of my attention to him even while he ignores me. He played in the dish water while I tried to wash dishes around him, heh, it was pretty funny and a heck of a lot less annoying than the whining or screaming!

I managed to get a lot done today. Not in a "in the zone, kickin' ass and takin' names, To Do list is fully crossed off" kind of way. More like, "I got nothing accomplished yesterday, but today I feel good, let's see what I can do between quality time with Ick, FB games and Twitter." Sparing you the list of things I did, let's just say, I'm happy with today. There's more on my To Do list but I'm not worried about it.

All cheesiness aside, that little bit of time in the morning to wake up with some coffee and Christ has made a difference. Yes, it was only one day, but when I suddenly have more patience to handle Ick's tantrums, I feel better physically and time seems to pass more slowly it's hard to ignore the proof.

Since time seemed to pass slower than the last few days, it was like I had more time to do what I needed and wanted to do. Y'all, I cooked dinner! I made muffins! Washed dishes! Cleaned off the mountain that used to be the table where my computer sits! Simply a wonderful feeling.

No, life didn't magically get better because I went back to Christ, but I did have the strength to make this day better than yesterday. And the comfort of knowing who to turn to if I just don't have enough and I may need a boost.

So here's to another good day tomorrow.

On a little final note, I'm up late tonight because I finished a new page on my blog! I'd love it if you gave it a little click and perused the short list of Blogs I Love. I know you'll find some wonderful blogs and great folks. Thanks!

Procrastination, Bad Parenting and Unemployment

I've been reading blogs by some of the lovely ladies and charming gents I've had the pleasure of "meeting" on Twitter. I've come to learn that not every single blog post needs to be four pages of passionate urging or tyrannical bitching. Apparently I'm allowed to write a short little anecdotal paragraph about my day. Hmmm...

Procrastination:
What did I accomplish today? I cleaned up one corner of the kitchen. Just the one. See, I don't have a trash can (one of the many joys of multiple moves in one month... two months ago...) so we set a bag on an extra side table that's stuck in the corner of my kitchen between the stove and fridge. It's really not a good idea. Lots of trash ends up not in the bag: on, around and under that round side table. This morning- Okay, around noon when I woke up, I got fed up and swept all the crap up with one broom while my two year old swung the other one around. I'm really surprised he didn't break anything or give me a black eye! I got everything up and into a city garbage bag (no cans here, I have to buy individual bags at $1.50 a pop every single week) and set it up to finish being filled. I gave up after arguing with Ick about the damn broom. It is not a toy and I still stand by that! I'd have let it go, but he likes to whip it around and who knows what he'll manage to hit? And I can't very well continue to clean when he's screaming at me! I thought I'd take a break and get back to it.

It's kind of amazing how fast the day goes by when you stay up until well after 5am and you don't get up until noon. I can't do anything but laundry after "bedtime" because my neighbors are crazy and I'm not chancing waking up the holy screaming terror in the bedroom!

Let's see, what else...? Oh, right, nothing. So I watched Rio (cute, but oddly lots of loose endings there) and caught up in Cafe World (don't judge me!) and even leveled my Shadowknight in EverQuest2 since it's my last day of subscription. I read a couple of books to Ick, went grocery shopping at two different stores for all of 5 items (I mean, really).

This isn't a boring list of "What I Did Today!" It's more like, "What the hell am I doing with my time and why is my house so filthy when I hate it that way?" I'm at a total loss when it comes to time management, I can't keep a house clean to save my life and I'm a lazy procrastinator. The very worst kind. I'd rather sit on my ass and play games or read than do anything even remotely resembling adult responsibilities.

Bad Parenting:
I'm not spending as much quality time with Ick as I did when I was working. Isn't that weird? I'm around all the time yet I don't really spend much time with him. It's awful and it makes us both miserable. It's back to that time management. Oh and bad parenting. I guess it would help if I went to bed at a normal hour and didn't sleep half the day while he plays nicely in our bedroom, letting me sleep. (He really can be such a sweet boy. Just yesterday he woke me up with, "I woo-uv you!" and lots and lots of kisses!)

I'm not the person I want to be and I'm making strides towards changing that. I really do enjoy those niggling little Facebook games, but lately I'm only playing one instead of the many games I'm a part of. Taking out those distractions will be a huge help I think.

Unemployment:
And I guess I need to apply for some jobs, huh?

(Um, what happened to "short" and "anecdotal?")

30 Day Photo Challenge: Day One: Self Portrait

Today begins my 30 Day Photo Challenge. For a while I have been feeling an undeniable urge to create and this project feels right to me. So I dusted off my camera and searched until I found a great list, read my camera's manual and found out some awesome features. So wish me luck on this journey of beginner's photography and please give feedback!

Day One is a self portrait and sadly, even on the first day I have slacked off and did not take a new one. I am using one from just over a year ago. (Sorry, today was the first day my toddler spent a day with his grandparents in almost two weeks and I was just so excited for some "me time!")

Freshly dyed hair, sarcastic look and a little fall decoration to hide the date/time stamp! I'm still on the fence about whether or not I want to add a little something or slightly Photoshop my images. This one is untouched except for the leaves (and a little dirty-house cropping). I will hopefully be doing a bonus image on a different day with a current self portrait that is a little more staged. I will keep you posted!

Tomorrow is Day Two: What You Wore Today.